Not very long after getting Gopher we started volunteering
for a local rescue as a foster home for Golden Retrievers and mixes. Gopher
being a young pup was eager to love each one of them, but confused when they
left. His favorite foster, fast friend and closest companion was Ramsey (The Story of Ramsey). After Ramsey was Barney (The Story of Barney). As a result of his love of Ramsey
and his depression when he left we decided it was time to have another
permanent resident and arranged for Squirrel. In the meantime we filled our
home with a new foster Barney, and although he was lovable in his own way,
Barney needed help, which we gave him. Gopher still mourning the absence of
Ramsey was excited by the new companion, but became jaded quickly when Barney
reacted to him in a negative way. Since that time Gopher, has always been more
aloof to new dogs and slow to become companions with them, including Squirrel
his little ‘brother’ who would be arriving in a few months.
Gopher bonded with Barney, and eventually Graham, and other
new dogs, but not as much as he did in the time before Ramsey and with
Ramsey. Squirrel being a young pup,
loved the peculiar antics of Barney, and did as much to help him in overcoming
issues as Gopher, Carla and I. Once Barney had settled into a wonderful and
loving forever home we intended to take a break, but quickly changed our minds
and took on a litter of puppies so that they could remain with their litter
mates until old enough to be placed in individual homes. We did not intend to
foster any of the pups for the long term as we were still exhausted from and in
the middle of all the training Squirrel needed in his first year of life. Once
they were all handed out to other loving foster homes we once again intended to
take a break, and we did, but not for as long as intended.
Graham was introduced on the plea as an 11 year old pure
bred Golden Retriever. He was said to be gentle, loving, and well-mannered. He
was also diagnosed with chronic kidney failure. We said yes knowing that he
might not get adopted and might not even be with us long. The original
prognosis was grim and 6 months was considered optimistic. He would go on to
live with us for 15 months, until last night when we were in the position to do
the last humane act and help him die. There are many tales I can tell you about
his time with us, and who he was, but the purpose of this blog is about Gopher
and his therapy work. Gopher and Graham were friends, but not like Squirrel and
Graham who loved nothing more than playing with one another, especially in the
morning while we were getting ready for our days. They were buds, the old man
and the young pup, frequently found cuddling one another. In the last week of Graham’s life Gopher started
doing his thing and giving therapy not to Graham, but to his little brother
Squirrel, and eventually once again to me his most consistent patient.
Graham’s decline could be represented graphically as an
exponential regression. After over a year of no change to even some improvement
in blood values, he deteriorated quickly.
During the year leading up to this with little to no interest of
applicants wanting to adopt Graham we settled into a routine of a three dog
house. Gopher playing sometimes, never really initiating, but rather being
prodded into it, but his little brother, Graham being a happy content, albeit stubborn
old man watching and many times joining in to the play. Graham and Squirrel
cuddling and playing with each other without Gopher quite often, they became the
best of pals.
Then last week, Grahams decline became obvious, that is when
Gopher stepped in to do a little therapy for his little brother. Gopher, who rarely initiated play, became
incessant wanting trying to get Squirrel to play constantly. He became more
insistent whenever Squirrel attempted to initiate play with Graham. Gopher
seemed to know that Graham could no longer play and that his little brother was
losing his best pal and needed him.
This last week, Carla and I cleared our calendars in order
to be near Graham if he needed us. We were not overly active since Graham could
not be, both Squirrel and Gopher were growing restless, but Gopher did his best
to keep Squirrel engaged with him and not focused on Graham. Our somber week
was lightened by the time we got to spend with Graham and the antics Gopher was
doing to keep little brother distracted.
On the last day of his life, Graham indicated to us that it
was time, his personality had faded and despite the aid of medication, he was
not interested in food. Thankfully he was not experiencing any pain. The change
was obvious, but Carla and I hadn’t talked about it yet. Then right before we
were to leave for the day, Squirrel stopped in the middle of the floor looked
to Graham, and back up at Carla, his eyes, his demeanor appeared as if he was
pleading with Carla to fix Graham. What Carla did not notice was Gopher,
standing a little farther away, toy in mouth taunting Squirrel. The distraction
was not enough this time though no matter how much Gopher tried.
We discussed it on our drive, and decided it was time. When
we came home Gopher was still initiating play as much as possible as we let
them outside, and then loaded them all into the car. The trip seemed extra-long coupled by traffic
and dread. We pulled in and unloaded Gopher and Squirrel, who would get a
private room, while Carla and I sat with Graham for the procedure. Graham being
a golden went in, noticeably weak, but still wagging at the excitement of
seeing strangers. The looks on our faces made it obvious what we were there
for, and the looks of compassion from strangers were a bit too much. Graham
went in laid down comfortably and was fully relaxed, in a matter of moments
that seemed all too short he was gone.
The drive home wasn’t much better, and the absence of Graham
overbearing. As soon as we got home, Gopher was at it again, initiating play
with his little brother. Throughout the night Gopher would take turns playing
with Squirrel, resting and loving up two friends who came to toast and remember
Graham. The entire time he kept an eye on his little brother. After several
stories had been told our friends left and it was time for bed. Gopher and
Squirrel clambered in taking their usual spots, I went to pull Gopher in
closer, he resisted, settled in for a while then left. As the house quieted and
Carla and I settled in a bit more, I pulled him up near me again, this time he
settled in, this time he knew it was I who needed him. I fell asleep cuddled
into him, tears being taken up by his coat.
Today, marks the first day of healing, the mood in our home
is somber. We will move on, though it is still raw right now. Either way in
this last week Gopher once again amazes me in his empathy, and instinct. He
took it upon himself to initiate play with Squirrel, to provide that
distraction and comfort. I am sure in the coming weeks we will settle into a new
routine, without Graham. How long Gopher will help his little brother mourn for
his friend I do not know. I am just
thankful that Squirrel has Gopher to help him through this transition, and only
wish I could turn back the clock and be able to help the young Gopher when his
friend Ramsey went to his adoptive family.
